is it your heart, that planet?

i've got so many wips wasting away in my docs/notes... as a notorious sunkcoster i'd managed to convince myself for years and years that i was going to get back to them eventually but i think it's time to let go..... there's actually a lot more (predating my college years... might go back in to compile them but THAT'S SCARY..) but these are the better ones. i did like most of these i just didn't have the energy or interest to flesh them out any more....! going backward

scratches head. no idea when i started this portion of what is now tcoa but this one was last edited apr 2024. as mentioned in the commentary i initially started the work as a kaoru pov and then was like Damn this is not working. but i did like reminiscing on my own experiences in the bay area.... sigh
( the coast of azure kaoru pov )

sep 2023 soyosakitaki from when i first watched mygo and was like Dude there are ghost triangles in here. i don't think i could make it into anything more concrete but i did like the concept of sakiko haunting both mygo narrative and group dynamix especially among the ex-crychics. and ofc particularly among my 2pick...!
( you, me, and the ghost )

genshin... started in nov 2020 bc well yes! lots of in-between bits but ultimately was last edited feb 2023. the ones in pseudo script format were intended to be comics but i'm not one of god's comic writers really... some from when i was convinced chaeya could be real.. i'm always like "idek how they got me" but i do know. there were four unambiguously adult men and i didn't like zhongchi/kaeluc (they come in a pair even tho they have nothing to do with each other bc that's how it fucking was.) and even though i wanted to like zhongkae i didn't think zhongli could handle all that and frankly i still don't. not that tartaglia could either but i rlly liked the "hey girl you're beautiful.. you fw white boys? / no / word up, take it easy" dynamic ppl were making up. uhhhh additionally there's a lot of beidou&kaeya ambiguous relationship and that was during the era where i was not quite 1pick2picking them but something very similar. idk but i still like how most of it reads even if i think i was smoking dick. without further ado
( genshin plot bunnies )

adosoukoga triangulation from dec 2022 when i was convinced that enstars would be seeing sooo much of me.. to be fair it has seen me a lot. but like i'm saying i don't think it's my fate fahjdahdjjaf the idea was that adosou and adokoga would be established which means soukoga would have to negotiate a lot and eventually it would lead to a real throuple.. mostly it was just going to be koga thinking about the Situation and souma as love rival except not rlly bc adonis loves very fairly and the nuances of the emotions etc etc... i wanted to make all sides of the triangle touch... bc u know me.
( the doc was just titled adsokg triangulation )

szll non-linear.. the idea was that it was going to be like szll relationship study in vignettes of childhood, school life in the calm before the storm, the beginnings of the empire when suzaku's rage is still white-hot, getting KILLED, and a rare + tender heart-to-heart during the empire. only ever managed to get 600 words on it even though i had a vision and thennnn i forgot about it and i suppose lost interest.... it is a good concept but i just don't think it's my fate to write slash and also i'm sure the szll oeuvre possesses at least one such fic already so it's not like there's a niche that desperately needs me to fill it... last edited in nov 2021
( second life )

omfg this one is so old. allegedly july 2021 but i'm frankly convinced it's older although i have absolutely no proof. i've always dreamed of finishing it bc i love kanadia but uhhhh i really truly don't think it's my fate at all... but i still like them.
( KANADIA!! )

mafuena from apr 2021 when i had first started prsk... of course among the niigos my favorite pair was the two who were vaguely antagonistic toward each other :heartbreak: literally loveeeeeeeee prsk 23 duos.... i was planning on making it like a canon compliant character study with only vaguely shippy characteristics but prsk story moves too damn fast and i got left behind. and now i can't say i particularly gaf likefajhgafhfd it's not my fate... i actually like this one a lot it just doesn't line up with the current text at all so i can't even do anything with it. also i don't remember anything
( mfen )

this has truly been our trip down memory lane.... like i said, maybe i'll gather up the courage to go through my other old shit but who can say for sure......

at the height of my arakao insanity 2k21 i was spitting out works in progress like it was a full time job, not thinking about anything other than the euphoria of arakao. at this point i hadn’t actually read any stories aside from like. operetta and starfes i think (naru foundational texts to ME) and maybe ressun. so it was a very very cursory understanding of canon which is why i gravitated toward aus.. which is rlly just arakao in general like girl they still haven’t spoken to each other since operetta and it was retconned. what about ME. anyway so after getting more into the actual text i lost interest in this au and i’d never really been Huge on it to begin with (kinda not into basing works On a narrative so much as basing them on a narrative’s setting or skeleton). so i had to let her go…. there were a few nice bits but in general i feel like you can tell i didn’t rlly give a fuck about the story so much as i wanted to write longing and arashi and kaoru were my favorite barbie dolls at the time of writing. last edit was in august of 2022!!! based very obviously and heavily on tachibana venio’s bl series “seven days”

warning: it’s over 8k words.
( waiting for tomorrow )